Being inspired to write is actually really hard when you don’t travel to different types of places and you’re in the…midwest. The last vacation I went on was last July, and it was a cruise to the Bahamas courtesy of … Continue reading
I just want to explain upfront that I will only be writing here when I am feeling peaceful inside. If I go a long time without posting, it is because I’m not sustaining a peaceful, fairly balanced state. This summer has had plenty of nice moments, but generally the hot months take a toll on my thinking. Weather has a huge effect on my ability to think and feel the way I want to think and feel. I said before that I don’t want to let people affect me, but weather will always have a say in my mental health. I am able to write now because it is less than 80 degrees outside. This morning I put on a dress (a rather short dress) and as I was walking out the house my mom told me that I was going to freeze. Music. to. my. ears. I need to get back to a place where I can “work” on myself again. Summer is not that place.
The reason why I only want to post when I’m feeling peaceful, and not when I have negative emotions, is because I do not want an archive of chaotic or angry mental states. I realize that some people use their blogs to vent and find solidarity with others over their negative emotions and experiences, but that’s not something that benefits me personally.
I had a really nice morning, which was unexpected. My boyfriend got out of bed on his own (I usually have to drag him), and we spent some well-needed refreshing time together. I was just planning to let him sleep in, but it was great that he was more energized than he is on most mornings. He didn’t know that I was in a dark place, but he acted affectionate and upbeat exactly when I needed him to.
I want people to know that I am not a trivial person. I think a lot about serious issues in the world. They affect me internally. I deal with negative things in this city. But when it comes to writing, I need to set my priorities straight and take care of myself. It’s not selfish, because cultivating a peaceful state of mind is never really selfish in my opinion. Peaceful state of mind —> peaceful actions —> peaceful world.
Thank you to my lovely friend Duchess of Prunes for nominating me to write about my first WordPress post. This will be a nice segue into, you know, actually blogging again! It is good to reflect upon where you began and what … Continue reading
Okay, I can do this…I can write something… Ugh no I can’t. This has been my brief inner dialogue every day for the past few weeks. I have felt a lot better since my post on May 2nd, after having … Continue reading
Hello WordPress, I love you, but I have been too depressed to write lately! -Love, Hazelnut Pie
Don’t quote T.S. Eliot. Don’t quote T.S. Eliot. Don’t quote T.S. Eliot. Don’t quo APRIL IS THE CRUELLEST MONTH. April is the cruellest month. Sorry for being cliche. But I actually really do hate April. Anyway, I wrote one of my … Continue reading
“There was no margin for error. The odds against them were tremendous, but the stakes were high. But now, steady’s the word… one false move and four lives hang in the balance.” -from The Adventures of Ichabod & Mr. Toad … Continue reading